What happen?

I've been through a lot, I don't know if i have suffered depression. They all say that's it just stress and it will go away, but my symptoms are different. I would like to stay in my bed and just lie there, i don't even want to go out or enjoy the sun, I just want to be alone. I feel that im sooo alone, and always sorry for myself. I often cry at night when everyone is asleep. Insomia is always by my side. Do you think this is depression?

Funny Weather

What weather would you like? Many of us wanted to see Mr. Sun when it rains, and when it so Hot! we would like the sky to cry. Here in the Philippines there are only 2 seasons, Summer & Rain. I live in a tropical country, were you can enjoy the sun. Rains gives us comfort after a long days of heat, for a night or 2 but not the whole week. Honestly, I just wanted the rain to stop, so tomorrow we can enjoy our trip to Ocean Park Manila. ^_^

Inspiring Lyrics, Thanks Alanis!

"That I Would Be Good"
that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

Today my life begins

I will break this chain that binds me, happines will find me. I know I can make it.
http://youtu.be/sJ0uYpzf5XU

Everythings Okay

Sometimes I need a little sunshine, keep giving me hope for a better day , a little love to find a way. Through this messy life i made for myself heavens knows a need a little  hope for a better day.

Watta day!!!

Sigh!, not a good day. Just loss our uncle leovards, my sister lovely been crying because she & her boyfriend broke up. And i'm broke =(. Waaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!! once again, Waaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!

Raindrops, Exam, Interview & Champorado =)

I woke up this morning with the sound of the rain, It's nice to snuggle a little bit more on my bed but I have to get up. I have a 10 am appointment for interview, and got no idea what sort of company I'll be getting into. So off i go. Umbrella is not my thing, i don't hate it, I just don't like carrying it around. Instead of using my umbrella, I let myself walked into the rain. I remember a phrase " I like walking in the rain, so you'll never know if i'm crying". Fortunately, its only drizzle, or i'll look like a wet toad during the interview ^_^. By the time i arrived, all I thought it will be just an interview , then the hr staff let me took the exam ha!. I was WTF!. No choice, I took the exam and then after that initial interview, and they let me wait for may 10 minutes for my second interview and then i have to wait for the 3rd interview which she don't know if the person is available. And I waited for 30 minutes and my stomach is grumbling. I really wanted to go home, eat and sleep. I've been there for 3 hours. On my way home it's raining hard, and i'm soaking wet. Would love to eat champorado on a weather like this.